Everyday I find out more and more things that I wish I didn’t know.
I guess I will never understand why you feel the way you feel …..
Even though you try your hardest to have someone see where you’re coming from or have them understand things & show them who you are as a person, sometimes it just doesn’t work……. No matter what you do to make things happen or to fix things, you’re always going to be at fault.
I’m done trying to get you to like me. I’m tired of showing you that I am the one for him. I’m tired of trying to prove myself to you when you’re the last person I need to prove myself to.
Because of you, my relationship becomes much harder then it has to be. We argue more because of you & that’s not what it’s suppose to be.
Everything is just getting to be way to much for me right now. Between my own problems (health-wise, mentally, physically etc.) I’m taking on everyone else’s problem, plus work, plus having to deal with people talking shit about how I’m going no where in life & dealing with working a full-time job. It’s too much ! I don’t know how much more I can actually take of anything else anymore. One day I’m going to just explode & just break down.
But doesn’t matter what’s going on. But doesn’t matter how much bad news you get. Doesn’t matter how much everything is killing you inside ….
………….. you always have to keep a smile on you’re face, like nothing is going wrong.